Its 2018, a new year and I really want to get some stability. Im not working, and while i am looking for a job, and I’m not really putting my heart into it. All I know is that my diary is getting full, with a event every weekend until Easter. Somehow, I feel this year will go by quickly.
But what will I change for 2018, I know what I should do and I have tried to do it with without any success. So the status quo remains. But all I am finding is that my life is just becoming more complicated. I ask myself, how could it be so?
I’ve simplified my financies, my lifestyle why can’t i get the rest of my life in order. Its not for want of trying, because I have made efforts to do the right thing. But I’m weak. I know that. So I sit hear watching Whitney Houston, ‘Can I just be me’ and I have to count my blessings.
I am alive, my life is fairly stress free. Any stress I have, I have caused it. I am blessed to be here, healthy and able to have choices. Yes I have choices and the only one who can mess it up is me. I just have to do the right thing.
Right now i want a class of bailey’s, but I am fat. I need to loose weight. Having a drink will not help me loose weight. Therefore, I must be strong and not have a drink before I go to bed. That will be hard. As I love Baileys with a passion, the same passion I have for life. I love life, especially my life.
So I have an invite to an party, you know I will go because I like being around music and dancing. This year, I have promised myself, that I will only go out where I enjoy the atmosphere. So far I have broken this wish twice. But on all other occasions, I have had a good time. Too good a time as I reflect back. Nothing comes without a price.
The price I am paying I’m not sure I can afford it, as my finances are low. So while I take the time to get my life in order, I also need to figure out how to increase my income. Yesterday, I took the first step, it was a hard step. But with all things it is one step at a time.
So every morning I now challenge myself to get up. Yes get up before 12, and do my exercises. I believe that if I can fix my weight, I can fix all the other things that are not going right in my life. That may be unachievable, but believing is half the journey.
So 2018, will be about concentrating on me, getting up, loosing weight and sorting out my finances.
Stella imnot, 2018, Fit I will be.